tomorrow...

Swimming in a watery green
Free yet tied by invisible strings
Lost and drowning in a sea of sorrow
My punishment meted out in the form of tomorrow

Each day's passing in a crawl
Changing in time, yet changing naught
The horror of having to live in time
When my heart is timeless in its mind

Alone yet not
Crowded yet empty
Uneasiness reigns
It drives me afrenzy

Broken and bent
Twisted and bruised
Mistaken, misunderstood
Unendingly misused

The knowledge within sends me areeling
Knowing what needs to be done
For temptations reign with beauty divine
Luring away from what needs to be done

How do i fight?
How do i win?
When my heart wishes neither
While my soul wishes both

I'm torn, ripped apart
Caught in a web of despair and disheart Wishing i was dead and saved myself From the pain of tomorrow, that threatens to reveal itself

But no. death does not come
It's not my time.
I have to wait, i have to suffer
These feelings repressed deep down under

Patience, tolerance, joy faked at my whim
Shelter i make from thoughts and dreams
But even in dreams the pain does seep through
For nightmares do come ever day or two

Ignore them. that's what i do
No pain's too much for me to get through
Let's look on to the bright side of life
I'll always have tomorrrow, isn't that right?